negatives.

So I've been encouraged to write down all the negatives about a recent relationship. That probably sounds horrible but It's to remind myself that I didn't like the way I was treated and that I can and WILL do better :)

So here we go:

-tried to date my cousin

-didn't want people to know about us 

-chose a not so awesome girl instead of me

-smoking pot and doing drugs 

-blaming my brother for your actions

-lying about how far we went (we kissed once, douche)

-only came and saw me when you were high

-taking my feelings for granted

-calling me every name in the book

-not letting me talk to anybody else

-treating me like I'm stupid

-having your cousins call and make fun of me

-showing me no respect what so ever

-always treating me like a second choice

-calling me a cry baby because I actually showed some emotions

-talking bad about me to other people

-bringing up things I told you in confidence to make me look dumb

-only took me out when it was late at night and nobody was around

-lying to me about stupid things

-taking my friendship for granted because I'm always there for you

-you never tried to build me up 

-were never really there when I needed you the most 

-your family intimidates the heck out of me

-you don't keep your word

-the way you treated me really was so crappy

-you made me feel like no matter how hard I tried, I was never going to be good enough for you. 

Those are just a few things why my  crappy. I won't blog about the good things because I'll always keep them so close to my heart. This post is for me to read when I'm having the toughest time letting go. 

I am a beautiful daughter of Heavenly Father and will be treated like one and nothing less.