odd feelings.

Like most people, I had a plan for my life. After high school go on a mission and come back and attend college maybe even travel a little. Isn't crazy how life just happens and all of sudden you're left confused? 

These past couple weeks all I can think about is becoming wife and mama. I've never been opposed to the idea of getting married and having a family, it just hasn't ever been like a main focus for me. All I can think about is having a family. Which is super odd considering I'm not even dating anyone and turn in my mission papers in two weeks. 

I'm not even sure what this post is about or why I am still writing it. Oh well :) it's just funny how life has a way of being exactly what it needs to be, when it needs to be it. I guess what I'm saying is I'm warming up to the idea that one day I'll be a wifey and a mama :) haha 

the cover of a book.

"Don't judge a book by its cover." A classic phrase that we hear on a daily basis. I know that it's not Christlike to judge others but lately I've been given an amazing opportunity to figure it out on my own. 

These past couple days I've gotten to know a new friend on so many levels. In high school he was a typical jock with the drop dead gorgeous girlfriend. He was part of the in crowd and everyone knew who he was. My impression of him was obviously very judge mental.  

I've learned so many things about him in just a short awhile. I don't tend to open up to people and let them in so easily. I feel like he and I have been friends for as long as I can remember. Last night we went for a drive and he poured his heart out to me about the church and how he knows everything happens for a reason. He doesn't have anything bad to say about anyone which I really admire. He is the most kindhearted person I've met in a loooong time. I love how genuine he is. 

Not only does he not judge others but he doesn't judge me. It's crazy how appreciated I feel when he talks to me. It really pays off to be true to what you believe in and who you are. He reminds me of an upgraded version of my best friend. I never thought if find a friend like that again. I just know this is the start of one amazing friendship. 

This friendship has taught me to not judge people. Everyone has their own battles and we just need to put ourselves out there and get out of our comfort zones. I'm positive I'll learn much more as I continue to get to know this awesome kid :) 

Don't be afraid to prove yourself wrong, it may just be the thing you need the most. 

the simplicity of rain.

As I lay here in the rain I can't help but think to myself how much I love it. There aren't many things in life that make me as genuinely happy as rain does. It's so simple. I love the way it feels. The way it smells. The way it is. I guess this is a pointless post but I sure do adore the rain. Most importantly I love the way it makes me feel. Down to earth and back to the person I am. It's so odd how nature just makes me feel so complete. I probably sound like a freak. Mark my words in a good twenty years I'll probs be a hippie :) 

just a small town girl.

I will always be a small town girl. i couldn't have asked to grow up in a more beautiful place with even more beautiful people.

photo credit: amandagphotography. seriously, check her out.