realize.

Yesterday I got to spend some much needed time with dani girl. 

It was like we were seven again. Not a worry in the world just the two of us being dorks. Talking with dani made me realize a lot of things. One of them being that it's not okay to lie to yourself. She shared things with me about a recent relationship she had and it reminded me a lot of the one I'm finding myself in now.

 With that being said I've come to realize that I've been rather selfish. How can I expect to be in a relationship when I know I'm leaving in a few short months. So I've come to the decision that the only relationship I need to work on is the one with my Heavenly Father.  

Dani helped me see that it's okay to feel certain ways and want to do certain things because it's natural man with that being said I need to put on the full armor of god and not just the bits and pieces I want. 

A few days ago I was able to receive a priesthood blessing. Prior to that I had someone ask me what the hardest thing was about deciding to go on a mission. As in what were some of the hardest trials I had to face. I couldn't exactly pin point it. If you couldn't tell that bothered me that I couldn't think of things. Then all of a sudden it clicked. For me the hardest part is that satan knows you. He knows what you really want and will try to give it to you in the most horrible way possible. Being natural men, of course we fall for it. It scares me that satan knows me so well but it also is comforting. Comforting because he knows I'm a strong daughter of god. I won't fall for his tricks so easily so he knows that he has to work twice as hard maybe even three times as hard. I am so confident in the person I am and the path that I'm on that satan will not stop me. I know he likes a challenge because he is constantly trying me. By all means keep the trials coming. I am becoming a strong servant of The Lord and nothing will stop me from sharing the gospel. 

I've realized that I am a blessed person who needs to be humbled daily. I need to communicate my feelings better and though I may want something now, I mustn't jeopardize my eternal salvation.

  Be grateful for everyday and take a moment each day to realize all the wonderful things that happen in your life daily.